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I am just a girl who is madly in love with Jesus. My hubby and I tied the knot in June of 2013. I love to sing, write, and worship. I am a lover of people, and my goal in life is to ensure those around me always know and see the Love of Jesus. I'm also one of the unlucky who have experienced loss, heartache, and the realities of the complications that come along with putting a bun in that oven. It's a wild ride, it's a fun ride, and I'd do it all over again if it meant I got to walk with Jesus even closer.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

God Be Praised


Across the earth we see
Worshippers believe
Hear our song
Praise to our God
Praise to our God

From dawn 'til dusk we'll be
Lifting up our King
Hear our song
Praise to our God
Praise to our God

Bringing honour to Your majesty
There's no other like the King of all kings

God be praised
All the glory to Your awesome Name
All creation rising up to say,
"We know our God reigns!"

Our broken lives were changed
When You broke the night with day
Hear our song
Praise to our God
Praise to our God

God be praised
All the glory to Your awesome Name
All creation rising up to say
"We know our God reigns!"
Singing, God be praised
All the glory to Your awesome Name
Though the earth will shake and battles rage
We know our God reigns!

Out of ashes You lifted us
To the table You came and filled our cup
Ev'ry heart and soul, all we are and more
Praise the Lord!

Our God reigns
Our God reigns
Our God reigns
Our God reigns

As 40 weeks comes to a close on a pregnancy I never was able to complete (3/27/2014) I am overwhelmed with grief, sadness, and a sense of hope and joy. On my drive to work I typically sing my guts out to whatever CD happens to be playing. Today this song popped up and I played it on repeat and sang this as my anthem. Our God Reigns. He is to be praised. I feel like this song proclaims so perfectly what we ought to be doing on this earthly home while we're here, and it perfectly states what all creation longs to be doing for eternity. There is so much hope, and healing, and adoration that spills from these lyrics. I just love it. During my reflection of the last 9 months, this song could very well be my personal anthem. I have tasted and seen that He is good and worthy to be praised under all circumstances. 

"Our broken lives were changed
When You broke the night with day"

I've seen this statement to be true! My seasons of darkness were broken with His perfect light. 

"To the table You came and filled our cup"

Ah, my cup has never been so full. After being completely emptied, His promises are true and He certainly is capable of fulfilling!

God Be Praised!

A lot can happen in 40 weeks. 40 weeks changes you. Whether there's something to show for it or not. Although today, I would have only technically been 39 weeks, and quite possibly even have a babe in our arms, it's almost impossible to not entertain the ideas and dreams and wishes we once had for that little one. As I am typing and pondering those same thoughts for the new little one my body is nourishing (at a tiny 7 weeks and something odd days), I can't help but admit that I assumed that being pregnant during this passing milestone would be easier. As the day approaches, and my new little one is constantly reminding me of his/her presence, it's like a boulder has been placed in my chest. It's heavy and burdened. I assumed my sorrow would be greatly outweighed by the new joy. I assumed my brain may have even tried to forget, but instead it's all I can think about. I am also very thankful that the 40 weeks is almost over, I am even more thankful that both due dates are quickly coming to a close. It means I survived, and I am strong! I made it through, and better yet I'm still singing....

God Be Praised.


Small update for those who are interested:

Signs/Symptoms: Um, hello fatigue.... Did I mention I was tired?.... Oh and STARVING when my eyes pop open. Although I feel like I could eat a horse... My body decides otherwise. Some mild cramping/stretching, Dizzy, bloating, and moodiness. 

Morning sickness: How about ALL day sickness that rarely ever makes me dash to the bathroom, 
it's more like that 'feeling' like I could ralph all day long.

Weight gain/loss: At one point the scale did say 1lb lost, but after re-checking it looks like only about .2-.3 lbs lost. So I'm about the same really. 

Cravings/aversions: Meat, no thank you. Water, gag me. Food, um - gross. BUT, when I can eat it's typically a good solid shovel sesh of anything and everything I can manage to get in. Mostly fruit (yumm, cantaloupe) is the most tolerable of anything out there. 

Best Moment: My first ultra sound. Having it confirmed that there actually is a baby in there, and even better, it was in my uterus. Watching my husbands face as they did the ultrasound - Priceless. 

10 comments:

  1. Thanks for posting...this song is beautiful. I haven't heard it yet.

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  2. That is a beautiful song!! I have been thinking something similar. I wondered if I were to get pregnant before my previous due date if it would help when that time comes. I think it would end up being just as you described though. Up to this point the one thing that really triggers the emotion is seeing another girl at church who is due just about the same time I was. Of course I am thrilled for her (although hers was unplanned as she is still in high school) it is a reminder of what stage I would have been at right now. But I do believe in what God has in store for us! I am praying for peace for you during this time and for a healthy pregnancy ahead. :)

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    1. I was right there with ya, several gals at my church got pregnant and/or announced their pregnancies right as I lost my first. It's hard to have something so close as a constant reminder! Praying for you and believing God has only great things for you!

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  3. You are allowed to still hurt about your past loss, even with a new little one on the way. I think you will indeed feel much better once you pass the old due date and can focus solely on the new life that's growing inside of you. So happy to hear the 1st u/s went well!

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    1. Yes, I am actually quite relieved to have this date behind me. One more dat in June for baby #2 and all will be back to normal, hopefully! It's always nice to get the 'firsts' out of the way! Praying for you! :)

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  4. Tears. Love you so much! What a perfectly fitting song.

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  5. Beautiful post. I cannot wait to see the priceless look on my husband's face when we are finally blessed and have our first PREGNANT ultrasound! Prayers for y'all!

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