Today has been by far the most surreal moment of my life. Never once did I imagine that I would be lucky enough to experience any of this. I was truly held captive by the label I was given - Infertile. This has proven to me that I am no longer bound by any titles, and My Lord and Savior is much more Majestic and Holy and Profoundly present in my every moment.
It's a super short video and really hard to see, but if you can watch closely you can see his/her little flickering heart!!
This little one is showing off a quick Fetal Heart Rate of 175. A heart beat! A living breathing little one specifically created for a divine purpose and loved more than my little words can express. I have never experience a heart beat before, it is the most humbling experience. I am speechless!
Our little one is measuring at 8 weeks and 3 days, which is way different than I expected but they have assured me that is it perfectly healthy and his/her growth rate is 85.6% and a crown to rump length of 1.96cm! In four short weeks this cashew (as my dear friend L named it) grew from .13cm to 1.96cm! WOW, isn't that amazing!? My heart could explode, the miracle of life.... Speechless I tell you! I keep giggling and am in shock that this is actually happening.... this is real... It's still early, but wow!
So for those of you interested here's my update:
Signs/Symptoms: Bloating, for sure bloating. I have fully convinced myself that by the end of the day I could pass as having a bump. Still nauseous throughout the day, but it is getting MUCH better, thank you Lord! Pretty fatigued still, and some other normal symptoms.
Morning sickness: Gag, gag, gag.... But like I said, getting soo much better!
Weight gain/loss: According to the OB visit today I have lost 3 pounds. She isn't concerned thankfully!
Cravings/aversions: Anything SUPER cold, and any drinks LOTS of crushed ice! There is a local coffee shop that has Bagel Sandwiches loaded with cheese and cream cheese and ham, then you heat it up nice and hot..... YUM, oh my gosh, I could eat that 3x a day. Vitamin Water is definitely doing the trick for me!
Best Moment: 175 beat per minute! Wow...I got a million pictures and even a handful in 3D! I was amazed! Coming home and sharing all this news with my Husband and watching his eyes light up, amazing! Worth every tear, every heartache. I love that man something fierce!