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I am just a girl who is madly in love with Jesus. My hubby and I tied the knot in June of 2013. I love to sing, write, and worship. I am a lover of people, and my goal in life is to ensure those around me always know and see the Love of Jesus. I'm also one of the unlucky who have experienced loss, heartache, and the realities of the complications that come along with putting a bun in that oven. It's a wild ride, it's a fun ride, and I'd do it all over again if it meant I got to walk with Jesus even closer.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Celebrating Life 7/23-7/24, 2013

As I sit here waiting for words to come, I feel failed. Words don't come. I type, delete, type again, and delete again. Wondering how on earth do I describe how today, one year ago, everything changed.

It's been a year of darkness, but I stand in confidence that something HAS to change. I will believe nothing less.

As I sat in a tiny little doctor's office, shaking, I waited to hear news that I never imagined I would hear. Ectopic. Tubal. I was scheduled for surgery that next morning (the 24th), as I was already starting to bleed internally. I don't think I'll ever forget my drive home from that office, I don't think I'll ever forget the song that played on repeat. I'll never forget how my hubs and I went home, washed up, went to dinner. It all felt so normal, but it was so quiet. It was very surreal. We didn't say much. After dinner we pulled into our pastor's drive-way, and I braced myself to actually admit out loud, that our first pregnancy (after being told it would NEVER happen naturally), our first baby, would have to be terminated and removed surgically from me.

Because my words fail me today and my words most likely won't come, I'll just post some pictures of July 23rd and July 24th. I hated saying good bye to someone who was deeply loved and deeply desired.

Today Connor and I will be writing notes on balloons and driving somewhere to a top of a mountain or hill to let them go. If you feel so moved to join us in celebrating our Little Flower, send pics, send off your own balloon in memory of our little one :) May seem silly to some, but what the heck, I'll do anything silly or not silly to celebrate the little ones that were mine for a short moment in time.

This song made the 23rd and my road to recovery much more bearable.

Pick-me-up dinner date with the Hubs. I don't remember having a single conversation at that table.

Sweet Hannah picked this out for me and brought it over that night. She was 1.5 years old at the time, her little heart is such a giver!

I loved having moments where I could feel the blessings, wholly.


Another blogger that I follow, today would have been her due date, and she had posted a song that just absolutely gutted me, Let Her Go. You can find it here for her post and also the YouTube video here.

Dearest Little Flower,

This Momma Loves you and misses you terribly. You were taken far too soon, but I know you are well cared for, and this world I live in is only temporary and we will get to meet you, soon. My little angel, you are severely missed, cherished, and deeply adored. My first, you brought hope, and new beginnings.

Love Always,



  1. You, your hubby and your little one are in my thoughts and prayers today Morgan.

  2. Oh Sweet girl!!!! I love you!! Praying for something and I KNOW that God will redeem this all. I'm glad you are celebrating your sweet little one today - I'm celebrating from Texas!

  3. Thank you for sharing even when words may fail you. This was a beautiful post and tribute.

  4. Thank you for sharing this. I know how difficult it must have been to write about something that hurts you so much. You, your husband, and your little angels are in my prayers. I know that someday after this life, God will let you know why this happened. Until then, I hope that He gives you many blessings throughout this life.

  5. Oh Morgan. You've endured so much, the fruit that is coming from all this will be so sweet. Our God never forgets us never! He will show you his great plan very soon. xo

  6. Love you sweet friend! Praying for comfort for you and Connor today.

  7. Hoping and praying that His future for you and gifts will show themselves. Hoping you receive comfort and peace. Hugs to you!

  8. I'm so sorry, friend. :( I absolutely can't imagine the pain of losing a child like that. Praying you are comforted in your loss this year.

  9. I have nominated you for the "Very Inspiring Blogger" award. Thank's for being you!

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  10. I'm amazed by how songs help so much in the healing process. Believe it or not, Sovereign and Let Her Go were two songs that helped me tremendously right after my miscarriage and both were posted on my blog. I love that we both found comfort from them! Thinking of you today and the sweet angels that are waiting for you in Heaven. XO

  11. That letter is sweet and there is such braveness in this post!